It's important to know which battles to fight. Recently, I have discovered that I have been unknowingly fighting the silliest battle of them all. I've been fighting God.
To be real, it can be tough when you DO have that ridiculous amount of faith in God. When you KNOW he can change a circumstance in your life or situation. And then when the situation falls off a cliff into the unknown abyss of darkness.... where is your faith left to go? I've been fighting for SO long. Too long. Questioning God as if having faith doesn't mean through EVERY season and circumstance. And yes, to my prides surprise, even the things that do not go my way. It amazes me how we can manage to stay in the dark for so long when the truth just so easily shows itself like a slap in the face like an "omg.... DUH moment".
I find it absolutely insane that Satan can SERIOUSLY mess with our minds if we do not keep spiritually fed!
I will admit, I tend to feel completely ridiculously just staying home and having some a lone time with God. Instead I am anxious and just ready to go out and find something new to adventure into and to meet new people and experience new things. I always find myself in this lacking routine. I end up feeling completely empty and exhausted and confused as to how in the world it ever happened.
Life can happen to the best of us. We just have to remembered to KEEP in the word. KEEP in fellowship. BE CAREFUL of who and what we spend our time and thinking on.
I was watching a video on youtube, "Lauryn Hill Speech", so very powerful. If you have not seen it, look it up. It's so to the point. It's so REAL. She mentioned a "Matrix" reference about how at the end of the film Neo was able to decode everything, it all started to make sense, the pieces fit. He knew an agent before the agent even showed himself. She said, "that how I want to be spiritually." So simple. and powerful. To work to be THAT spiritually prepared at all times to the point where the answers end up SO simple!
FOR MONTHS I have been struggling with something very personal and very dear to my heart.
Right at this moment, for the first time in months, It all makes perfect sense.
This came after I decided to spend almost my entire weekend at HOME. Studying. Researching. Gods words flowing through me.
My struggle has lasted years. I've taken this baggage with me everyday. Some days easier than others.
But in all of my struggles I have learned something so very valuable.
STAY IN THE WORD OF GOD. DO NOT LET YOURSELF BE LED ASTRAY.
AND BE CAREFUL because we battle not against flesh and blood.
If we are not spiritually prepared for battle we let the enemy win these victories over us.
We are not at the mercy of any else's choices; or even our own. We are in God's hands.
I plan to look confidently ahead to what He will do on my behalf.
Sunday, September 16, 2012
Tuesday, August 7, 2012
Question:
A few thoughts running through my mind tonight. Do we lower our standards because we seem out of step with the world around us? Our ideals, dreams, goals. We let them drift away with the standards the world throws into our faces each day. Have a career, make good money, get married, have children, raise a family. All within certain time constraints and ages.
My hope is to go above all of that. To focus on the timing that God has set before me in my life. To work hard for HIS will, to travel with the intent to help those less fortunate, to see the world, experience true spontaneity in its most virgin form, to find love everywhere I go, to find true love in a man only hand chosen by Gods grace.
I do not hold a time frame in any of this.
Instead, I work hard and take the steps that God has set before me. Letting him light each and every step as I go.
A few stumbles have occurred and yet wonderfully I feel I am exactly where I should be. Everyday continuously moving forward.
God truly has the best in hand for those who seek him.
Just as Ruth waited for Gods best resulted in her union with Boaz rather than Bozo.
She did not allow culture to keep her from setting new standards and making wise choices for her life that would truly honor God.
I do not believe in compromise or settling as the sake of my beliefs or the word of God.
Why would we settle for such a generic version of life?
Break the cycle of "damaged goods"
Make wise choices.
Don't cling to the next new thing because the world tells you that your standards are just unattainable.
Work hard, trust the Lord, seek him, and beautiful amazing dreams will be fulfilled. Maybe not quite when you would expect or how you expected, but they really will be fulfilled.
My hope is to go above all of that. To focus on the timing that God has set before me in my life. To work hard for HIS will, to travel with the intent to help those less fortunate, to see the world, experience true spontaneity in its most virgin form, to find love everywhere I go, to find true love in a man only hand chosen by Gods grace.
I do not hold a time frame in any of this.
Instead, I work hard and take the steps that God has set before me. Letting him light each and every step as I go.
A few stumbles have occurred and yet wonderfully I feel I am exactly where I should be. Everyday continuously moving forward.
God truly has the best in hand for those who seek him.
Just as Ruth waited for Gods best resulted in her union with Boaz rather than Bozo.
She did not allow culture to keep her from setting new standards and making wise choices for her life that would truly honor God.
I do not believe in compromise or settling as the sake of my beliefs or the word of God.
Why would we settle for such a generic version of life?
Break the cycle of "damaged goods"
Make wise choices.
Don't cling to the next new thing because the world tells you that your standards are just unattainable.
Work hard, trust the Lord, seek him, and beautiful amazing dreams will be fulfilled. Maybe not quite when you would expect or how you expected, but they really will be fulfilled.
Monday, August 6, 2012
Why not now?
So, I've been thinking ... for three years now, it has been put on my heart to reach out to single young ladies with hearts to follow the will of God.
I've been attending the same church now for over ten years, and it's always felt as if "young women" have been a bit overlooked. Nothing against my church, but womens conferences focusing on "married women" and women with children just really doesn't do very much for me.
There NEEDS to be a revolution of young women in our day n age.
To be quite honest, most young women these days are lost. Lost in the world of insecurity, sex, addiction, alcohol, and drugs. We give our hearts and bodies to the wrong men over and over again. We lose ourselves to the women in magazines and on the tv screen. We find comfort in our addictions to clothes, beauty, diet pills. We lose ourselves to these things every single day.
So here I am, just one of the many women in the world trying to STAND ABOVE it all.
In hopes of a better world. In hopes that I might not lose myself in this world, but gain everything in the kingdom of God.
This drive has been beating at my heart for years, and tonight something struck a cord.
Why not me?
If I can't seem to find a revolution of women to join, I'll start my own! And whether or not many women decide to join me, why not try? Why not now? Why not tonight?!
I'm in my room.. just trying to sleep. And my heart is bursting with all of these hopes and dreams for the women of today.
Single women in particular.
It's hard for us ladies out there.
We hear it everyday, we're not skinny enough, not beautiful enough, not ever quite enough. We aren't lady enough, we aren't hard-working man enough. And I just want to brag and boast to you that YOU ARE ENOUGH! The Lord of all the earth MADE you, and let me tell you, he NEVER makes a mistake.
He made you beautifully and perfectly. So take heed of this! Be strong in this! Be ever hopeful IN HIS promises! Be apart of this revolution with me! Let's realize our beauty in the God, EVERY SINGLE DAY, TOGETHER, for the rest of our lives. Because lets face it, men are great, but where are we without our LADIES of fellowship and love!?
I hope I can be there for all of you ladies. With a drive to follow our Lord in heaven.
He has such beautiful plans for our lives, and this blog is dedicated to that HOPE and to the reminder of HIS promises. I love you all, beautiful darlings.
Revolution of Love <3
I've been attending the same church now for over ten years, and it's always felt as if "young women" have been a bit overlooked. Nothing against my church, but womens conferences focusing on "married women" and women with children just really doesn't do very much for me.
There NEEDS to be a revolution of young women in our day n age.
To be quite honest, most young women these days are lost. Lost in the world of insecurity, sex, addiction, alcohol, and drugs. We give our hearts and bodies to the wrong men over and over again. We lose ourselves to the women in magazines and on the tv screen. We find comfort in our addictions to clothes, beauty, diet pills. We lose ourselves to these things every single day.
So here I am, just one of the many women in the world trying to STAND ABOVE it all.
In hopes of a better world. In hopes that I might not lose myself in this world, but gain everything in the kingdom of God.
This drive has been beating at my heart for years, and tonight something struck a cord.
Why not me?
If I can't seem to find a revolution of women to join, I'll start my own! And whether or not many women decide to join me, why not try? Why not now? Why not tonight?!
I'm in my room.. just trying to sleep. And my heart is bursting with all of these hopes and dreams for the women of today.
Single women in particular.
It's hard for us ladies out there.
We hear it everyday, we're not skinny enough, not beautiful enough, not ever quite enough. We aren't lady enough, we aren't hard-working man enough. And I just want to brag and boast to you that YOU ARE ENOUGH! The Lord of all the earth MADE you, and let me tell you, he NEVER makes a mistake.
He made you beautifully and perfectly. So take heed of this! Be strong in this! Be ever hopeful IN HIS promises! Be apart of this revolution with me! Let's realize our beauty in the God, EVERY SINGLE DAY, TOGETHER, for the rest of our lives. Because lets face it, men are great, but where are we without our LADIES of fellowship and love!?
I hope I can be there for all of you ladies. With a drive to follow our Lord in heaven.
He has such beautiful plans for our lives, and this blog is dedicated to that HOPE and to the reminder of HIS promises. I love you all, beautiful darlings.
Revolution of Love <3
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